Things have just changed so much over the past week.
The new job. That one thing has changed everything, including my sleeping pattern. I am alternately excited, terrified, nervous, and enthusiastic. I don’t want to tell people about it, because I don’t want to seem like a big headed person. I also don’t want to seem to have false modesty. I think they like me at work and don’t want to lose me.
Things have just changed so much in the past week. Before getting the job, I wasn’t real happy with my job situation, and I was planning to get the heck out of
And yet, I like
And now there are all these expectations for me – I have to be an assistant manager. I will be the youngest person in management at the library. I mean, seriously, the next oldest person is my new boss and he’s got over a decade on me. It’s terrifying and exciting all at the same time. Can I handle such responsibility?
I have to say, yes, I can handle it. It will be a lot easier once I get into things and don’t have time to worry as much. I am, as Future boss has apparently been told, a quick learner. Picking up business, science and technology really shouldn’t be the end of the world, and the job center actually will be fun. I think. I hope.
I guess it all boils down to the fact that I really like helping people, and that the subject matter isn’t as important to me. I just want to help people meet their information needs. Also, thinking about the fact that I was going to have to do programming made me get out my old library science books and think that I should re-read them. I am such a nerd. But I loved the management class that I took in college. Seriously, my goal has always been to get into administration. (Although, I did not expect to start now in management.) I want to be a library director when I am older – well, perhaps older than thirty – although not at a system like this one. No way. That is just a little too disconnected from the actual services. I just think that I have a gift for organization and things like that. Let’s just hope that I get better at dealing with people in a management/I'm your boss, kind of manner.
Still, I feel like there are all these expectations. My bosses keep saying that I will be so great for the position and that they are really excited about it. The level of enthusiasm for me getting this job is just kind of overwhelming. Is this the reason that I am waking up after only five hours of sleep now? I am just so annoyed with myself…I wake up and start thinking. My mind just races and I can’t turn off my brain. And it’s all new job related. It’s frustrating. I’M ON VACATION RIGHT NOW!!! I set my alarm clock (optimistically) for
So, yeah, I just need to turn off my brain whilst on vacation. Seriously, it is truly disturbing to wake up at
I know I said I wouldn’t be writing in this darn thing while I was on vacation, but when I wake up at
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